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Feeling like crap. Not physically ill or anything, just... down. Ashamed of myself for a variety of reasons. Tempted to take a long break from people... hide in my home and don't show my face. I don't know. Seems like every time I'm around people I disappoint them in some way. Or at least I disappoint myself. "Make an ass out of myself" were the words told to me last night.

Just feel like giving up entirely.

FUUUUUU-

So for those curious...

Part of my moodswings this week is due to the fact that I accidentally skipped my meds a week ago. This whole week has been a giant re-adjustment period made of hell. Maybe it's because I haven't had to do this in a while but it seriously blows. Moody, nauseous, stomach-sick-at-the-OTHER-end (which as it turns out TEA = BAD FOR IT. Way for me to not find out until after I drank two cups)

So yeah, most of my madness and moodiness and sickness in the last few days = explained.

And my stomach currently = the bane of my motherfucking existence. Seriously, it's hard to enjoy a good dinner when I know I'm going to suffer within minutes of finishing it.