yeah I was up at 5 to do art... I'm weird. but if one can't sleep, one might as well get shit done..

I have a comic done, trying to color it, yay for being on time... and my tablet is REFUSING. I'm just so frustrated. My tablet's pressure is completely fucked and it makes it impossible to use. I've had the thing for years, so I guess it had to go sometime... just wish it had happened when I had a new shiny one lined up. ;P Been pricing tablets for the last few months and haven't found one at a price I can manage yet, which is frustrating.

Frustrating frustrating frustrating.

I have artistic blue balls here, man.

Kiss me, hold me, tell me everything will be okay... tell me I'M okay....

Randomly emotional. Like I want to cry and I'm not entirely sure what all triggered it. Maybe an assortment of things. Missing my family, being a shit friend, PMSing for entirely too long now... desperate for some closeness, some intimacy. I don't even mean sex, just... closeness.

Aaaand I'm about to come up on the episode of Scrubs with Brendan Fraser's character. What a depressing handful of episodes. I watch Scrubs to cheer up, I really do, but they do have a few episodes that can send me into a wobbly of tears. Ben, Laverne, Carla's PPD... ffff

I wish I was a better person.

I think I'm going to make myself some hot cocoa.