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Feeling like I got run over by the "lol fuck you" truck. Physically, anyway. Mentally I'm fairly stable today - hormones have calmed down for this month, thankfully. No more random weepies - just justifiable ones. Sometimes.

But yeah, physically UGH! Coughing up ALL THE THINGS, still cramping (wut), headache, hip pain. YAAAAY. Not yay. But PRETEND-YAAAAY.

Despite it I got a bit of housework done. Cleaned up the livingroom and dining room, vacuumed... kitchen still isn't done but I need a break. I'm wearing myself out hardcore.

Fucking hell...

Just got a call from a VA contractor about my disability increase... scheduled on the 15th for X-rays (that I know won't show a damn thing as the problem isn't with the bones - Jesus, it's PTRP all over again...) and the 17th for the meeting

Fucking hell I'm nervous and scared and if they ignore the muscle pain and just focus on the bones they'll be all "psh you're fine" and I'm fucked

What do I do, goddammit...