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Jul. 12th, 2014 10:37 pmThere's a storm coming.
Not being cryptic about anything here, it's a very literal storm. We'll go from 100 degree weather to 80 degrees and heavy storms for days. This should hit Tuesday or Wednesday. I've been in so much pain for three days now.
It's getting to me, mentally. I've lucked out the last few days that the pain hits late at night. Which makes it hard to sleep well but at least I CAN try to sleep through the worst of it. Today it's been mostly in the day though and I'm having a hard time concentrating and my memory is fuzzy and I'm just all-around struggling with the most basic thoughts.
Painkillers, water, rest. I miss doing art. I'm hoping tomorrow is much better and I can do Head Trip stuff, commission stuff, and maybe even some chores. The bedroom, bathroom and kitchen all need a ton of attention. I need to clean the office. We need to get ant killer for outside and plant some mint around the house. We need to fix the fence. We need to mow and weed.
Obviously this is not stuff that can be done all in one day. But I'm angry that I'm so physically limited and can't even do one or two of them right now.
And god help me right now I just want to be gently held and told everything is okay and that I'm not a total failure.
Not being cryptic about anything here, it's a very literal storm. We'll go from 100 degree weather to 80 degrees and heavy storms for days. This should hit Tuesday or Wednesday. I've been in so much pain for three days now.
It's getting to me, mentally. I've lucked out the last few days that the pain hits late at night. Which makes it hard to sleep well but at least I CAN try to sleep through the worst of it. Today it's been mostly in the day though and I'm having a hard time concentrating and my memory is fuzzy and I'm just all-around struggling with the most basic thoughts.
Painkillers, water, rest. I miss doing art. I'm hoping tomorrow is much better and I can do Head Trip stuff, commission stuff, and maybe even some chores. The bedroom, bathroom and kitchen all need a ton of attention. I need to clean the office. We need to get ant killer for outside and plant some mint around the house. We need to fix the fence. We need to mow and weed.
Obviously this is not stuff that can be done all in one day. But I'm angry that I'm so physically limited and can't even do one or two of them right now.
And god help me right now I just want to be gently held and told everything is okay and that I'm not a total failure.
