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lol I haven't slept.

... fffuuu-

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Appointment was quick, and more or less (so far) pointless. Oh and painful. It was just an X-ray of the right knee - I told them, in detail, that they wouldn't find anything. It's a muscle problem, in the hips/downward etc etc. They couldn't do anything about it and I didn't see a doctor, just a tech. But I wrote everything down, including numbers for the doctors who know what the hell's going on.

Didn't anticipate how anxiety-provoking the X-ray would be. Since the last time I had (way too many) X-rays was back in PTRP. So many useless X-rays, so many doctors and therapist ignoring me when I told them where the pain actually was. So that brought back some emotions I would have rather not had. Plus, yes, painful physically. Laying on the X-ray table on my right hip? OW. Good thing the tech was good and nothing had to be retaken.

Went home and slept, catching up a little on whatever I didn't get last night. Still not feeling entirely energetic so I'll stay in tonight. I miss karaoke but it's probably wiser for me to skip. Unless I change my mind in the next 4 hours. No idea. :P Might be another anxiety bucket since (I know, I know) I rely a bit on the drinking there to calm myself and it's not like I can afford my own booze right now, lol

Oh me.