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Aug. 6th, 2011 03:44 pmLast night was a frustrating pile of nightmares, both figuratively and literally.
It started out just fine, with game night. Played Scion with friends, snacked on tasty foods, had a few awesome laughs and enjoyed the company of lovely people. The whole time I was fighting to stay awake however, as "shark week" had begun that morning and I was wiped the fuck out by it. Not to mention the cramps.
Managed to stay awake long enough to make it home. Will was still at Pan and Addison was probably at a friend's place for the night so I was by myself. I fed the kitty, put some things away, glanced at the PC with the thought "Hm, I'm exhausted but should I force myself to stay up and play with Photoshop?"... that decision was very quickly made. I was beyond tired... my body was barely wanting to move, my mind was stuck in a calming and sleepy fog, my spirit was pretty much already in bed... so I crawled under the covers...
And proceeded to not be able to sleep for a good hour. Part of it due to... I have no idea, actually. Maybe the energy drink I'd had earlier that night but those rarely keep me from sleeping so many hours later. Part of it was definitely Azrael, who has refused to shut the fuck up for a couple of days now. No idea what's got him so vocal but it made it incredibly difficult to sleep. Plus he needs a bath and it somewhat stinky so I didn't want to cuddle him to quiet him either - I was stinky enough by myself what with the 109 degree weather and the sweat that comes with that, I didn't need Azrael's help.
Will got home soon after and talked for a bit as he usually does after Pan. Told me a bit about that night, and as he laid down apologized in advance for snoring.
See, Will snores. Not normally a big deal as it's not every night and he can usually just roll over to his right side and it stops. But he was sick earlier this week and his body is still recovering - upper respiratory stuff. Needless to say I haven't been able to get a full night's sleep in a bed all week, as I keep going to the livingroom couch to get enough quiet. The snores are alarmingly loud and there's only so much I can sleep through.
So about an hour after he falls asleep I realize this'll be another one of those nights. My exhaustion has reached the point where I'm now emotionally vulnerable to hormones raging throughout my body. I drag my feet to the couch, curl up, and try to sleep.
It doesn't work.
I toss and turn for another couple of hours and finally give up. I sat up, cramps raging and lower back spasms going nuts... I feel nauseated as hell (and things weren't great on the other end either - not sure if it was something I ate earlier that night but this was miserable) and I just cried my stupid eyes out for a good half-hour.
In between trips to the bathroom I browsed online for a bit and did my best to distract myself and hopefully wear myself out enough to sleep.
And the whole time, Diana is clawing at things to get my attention and won't fucking stop.
I did finally get some sleep some time after 5... closer to 6 I think, as it was getting lighter outside. Addison came home sometime after that for a bit so that woke me up. Then I had to get up a few times for the bathroom, etc... then woke up a few times for no good reason. So on and off I slept as much as I could until noon.
I feel better today. Still tired, my eyes hurt from a restless and sobby night... cramps are still insane but enough time has passed that I can start taking painkillers again (I'd maxed myself out yesterday)... I was able to get on Photoshop and figure it out enough to finish the comic (though I still need to tweek some things later), upload it, etc... listened to quiet music and calmed myself down. Had some water. Pet Diana who has calmed down significantly since last night.
Tempted to try a nap in a minute. Craving some kind of comfort food, but I just don't have the energy to cook right now. Empty tummy will have to wait.
It started out just fine, with game night. Played Scion with friends, snacked on tasty foods, had a few awesome laughs and enjoyed the company of lovely people. The whole time I was fighting to stay awake however, as "shark week" had begun that morning and I was wiped the fuck out by it. Not to mention the cramps.
Managed to stay awake long enough to make it home. Will was still at Pan and Addison was probably at a friend's place for the night so I was by myself. I fed the kitty, put some things away, glanced at the PC with the thought "Hm, I'm exhausted but should I force myself to stay up and play with Photoshop?"... that decision was very quickly made. I was beyond tired... my body was barely wanting to move, my mind was stuck in a calming and sleepy fog, my spirit was pretty much already in bed... so I crawled under the covers...
And proceeded to not be able to sleep for a good hour. Part of it due to... I have no idea, actually. Maybe the energy drink I'd had earlier that night but those rarely keep me from sleeping so many hours later. Part of it was definitely Azrael, who has refused to shut the fuck up for a couple of days now. No idea what's got him so vocal but it made it incredibly difficult to sleep. Plus he needs a bath and it somewhat stinky so I didn't want to cuddle him to quiet him either - I was stinky enough by myself what with the 109 degree weather and the sweat that comes with that, I didn't need Azrael's help.
Will got home soon after and talked for a bit as he usually does after Pan. Told me a bit about that night, and as he laid down apologized in advance for snoring.
See, Will snores. Not normally a big deal as it's not every night and he can usually just roll over to his right side and it stops. But he was sick earlier this week and his body is still recovering - upper respiratory stuff. Needless to say I haven't been able to get a full night's sleep in a bed all week, as I keep going to the livingroom couch to get enough quiet. The snores are alarmingly loud and there's only so much I can sleep through.
So about an hour after he falls asleep I realize this'll be another one of those nights. My exhaustion has reached the point where I'm now emotionally vulnerable to hormones raging throughout my body. I drag my feet to the couch, curl up, and try to sleep.
It doesn't work.
I toss and turn for another couple of hours and finally give up. I sat up, cramps raging and lower back spasms going nuts... I feel nauseated as hell (and things weren't great on the other end either - not sure if it was something I ate earlier that night but this was miserable) and I just cried my stupid eyes out for a good half-hour.
In between trips to the bathroom I browsed online for a bit and did my best to distract myself and hopefully wear myself out enough to sleep.
And the whole time, Diana is clawing at things to get my attention and won't fucking stop.
I did finally get some sleep some time after 5... closer to 6 I think, as it was getting lighter outside. Addison came home sometime after that for a bit so that woke me up. Then I had to get up a few times for the bathroom, etc... then woke up a few times for no good reason. So on and off I slept as much as I could until noon.
I feel better today. Still tired, my eyes hurt from a restless and sobby night... cramps are still insane but enough time has passed that I can start taking painkillers again (I'd maxed myself out yesterday)... I was able to get on Photoshop and figure it out enough to finish the comic (though I still need to tweek some things later), upload it, etc... listened to quiet music and calmed myself down. Had some water. Pet Diana who has calmed down significantly since last night.
Tempted to try a nap in a minute. Craving some kind of comfort food, but I just don't have the energy to cook right now. Empty tummy will have to wait.
