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Mar. 5th, 2014 09:20 amMy birthday is coming up (in over a month but I find time is flying by lately so I might as well start thinking about it now).
I find myself fantasizing about things every year, how I'd love to spend my birthday if money were no object. Fancy weekend-long parties, nights out at nice restaurants, shopping for whatever the hell I want, flying long-distance friends in, traveling all over the world, long spa days... I tell myself I'm a fairly low-maintenance person with humble taste but I'll be honest here... that's only mostly true. I can and AM happy with the cheapest possible options I can get my hands on, I'm satisfied with frugality and living within my means and I'm pretty damn good at making something out of nothing. I truly am. I can make all of those things work. But to say I wouldn't enjoy the finer things on occasion if they were available to me? That'd be a lie.
And this doesn't make me a hypocrite or even all that unique of a person, I know that. I think most frugal folks would like to enjoy a day or weekend or so of decadence if it were handed to them... hell, who wouldn't? Just because I'm careful with my money most of the time, doesn't mean I can't fantasize about other options out there. It's definitely not something I could do full-time. About a week of lavish spending and spoiled riches would be about enough for me until I began to stress about how much I was spending. Even if I had plenty, I'd still worry. And that's good. I automatically stop myself and hold back without much effort.
And this is not even on the table as a possibility, so I won't be tempted or tested anyway. My birthday falls on a Monday so most likely nothing much will happen the day of. Maybe I'll have a song sung to me and a toast raised later in the week. Something casual, something easily forgotten. And honestly even though nothing will really happen, as long as it's far less stressful and much more under my control than last year, I'll be happy. This year will be a weird number, too. 29. Nothing terribly special about that outside of it being my 20s "last hurrah"... but... meh? Most of the heavy partiers I know are over 30 so it's not like my foot out the 20s door is even that big of a deal. I'll probably go through a small 30 crisis sometime in the next year... I'll try to stay aware of it and keep it under control. But yeah.
Okay, I'm going to stop this here before I go on about existential emotional and all-around boring introspective bullshit. I have all year for that and I'm in no rush. ;)
I find myself fantasizing about things every year, how I'd love to spend my birthday if money were no object. Fancy weekend-long parties, nights out at nice restaurants, shopping for whatever the hell I want, flying long-distance friends in, traveling all over the world, long spa days... I tell myself I'm a fairly low-maintenance person with humble taste but I'll be honest here... that's only mostly true. I can and AM happy with the cheapest possible options I can get my hands on, I'm satisfied with frugality and living within my means and I'm pretty damn good at making something out of nothing. I truly am. I can make all of those things work. But to say I wouldn't enjoy the finer things on occasion if they were available to me? That'd be a lie.
And this doesn't make me a hypocrite or even all that unique of a person, I know that. I think most frugal folks would like to enjoy a day or weekend or so of decadence if it were handed to them... hell, who wouldn't? Just because I'm careful with my money most of the time, doesn't mean I can't fantasize about other options out there. It's definitely not something I could do full-time. About a week of lavish spending and spoiled riches would be about enough for me until I began to stress about how much I was spending. Even if I had plenty, I'd still worry. And that's good. I automatically stop myself and hold back without much effort.
And this is not even on the table as a possibility, so I won't be tempted or tested anyway. My birthday falls on a Monday so most likely nothing much will happen the day of. Maybe I'll have a song sung to me and a toast raised later in the week. Something casual, something easily forgotten. And honestly even though nothing will really happen, as long as it's far less stressful and much more under my control than last year, I'll be happy. This year will be a weird number, too. 29. Nothing terribly special about that outside of it being my 20s "last hurrah"... but... meh? Most of the heavy partiers I know are over 30 so it's not like my foot out the 20s door is even that big of a deal. I'll probably go through a small 30 crisis sometime in the next year... I'll try to stay aware of it and keep it under control. But yeah.
Okay, I'm going to stop this here before I go on about existential emotional and all-around boring introspective bullshit. I have all year for that and I'm in no rush. ;)
