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Still hiding. Still numb. Still feeling... gray. Empty. Looking around and not knowing how things can improve and how I can make it improve. Feeling helpless. Cold. Clinging to the small amounts of emotion I manage to feel, even if it's just anger and impatience.

I need a break. I need some kind of escape from this, and I don't know how.

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"Porcelain Black - Mannequin Factory (Official Lyric Video)" (Watch on YouTube)

Been listening to this over and over tonight. The way she growls when she says "Oh wait, I don't really care"... awesome. I prefer her old days as Porcelain and the Tramps, but Porcelain Black's style isn't too bad. It's a lot more "pop", and reminds me of an angrier Lady Gaga. But I don't mind that when the mood strikes.