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Jul. 6th, 2014 07:05 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
shingaStill adjusting to life. I actually had coping mechanisms in mind for when I got back... throwing myself into work, chores, cleaning, unpacking. Unfortunately everything that helps me keep my head on straight is physical. So when I got home I started doing this stuff and it was working aaand then incoming storms laid me the fuck out. I did not handle it well, emotionally. Stuck on the couch for days fighting off some really nasty headspaces. My therapist was out for the week so I wasn't able to talk to her about it. But luckily I was able to vent a little to some one close and in that venting I was able to talk myself to the conclusion that, duh, my mood is worsened by the violently ripped away control I had over my body. So post-vacation post-period pain-ridden mood. NOT FUN. But once I realized where some of that was coming from it helped.
Storms passed, feeling somewhat better now.
Thinking about wedding stuff. Have looked at a handful of small local venues. I badly want a HUUUUGE venue where we can invite literally everyone we know and like but that's, like... easily hundreds of people. It's just not realistic. Might do small family/close friends wedding and giant wild party later on. We'll see. This isn't even happening until next year at the soonest so I'm not stressing out yet.
I need to get back into the swing of things work-wise. Need to get back into exercise. Hopefully body cooperates, the pain isn't pre-storm bad but it's still pretty bad. It's been keeping me from doing quite a lot since we got back. Very frustrating.
July is starting to fill up a bit plans-wise but nowhere near June levels of ridiculousness.
Will and I got a new bed this weekend - a REALLY nice one. Like "should help our physical issues a LOT" type of nice. Adjustable so it can take pressure off the back and hips while we sleep, and I can have my feet elevated for circulation problems. Given some time and it should improve our lives significantly. I'm really glad we were able to get it, and that the mattress place had such an awesome deal on it (5 years 0% interest, no penalties for "overpaying"? Score)
I don't know, all in all I'd say life is looking up. I'm holding my breath it feels like, waiting for something to go catastrophically wrong because, well... that's been life for the last 10 years or so, a comedy of errors, a constant "oh god what now" series of events. Now that things seem to be going so right I'm trying REALLY hard to enjoy it without worrying that it's all about to go horribly horribly wrong. :P
Storms passed, feeling somewhat better now.
Thinking about wedding stuff. Have looked at a handful of small local venues. I badly want a HUUUUGE venue where we can invite literally everyone we know and like but that's, like... easily hundreds of people. It's just not realistic. Might do small family/close friends wedding and giant wild party later on. We'll see. This isn't even happening until next year at the soonest so I'm not stressing out yet.
I need to get back into the swing of things work-wise. Need to get back into exercise. Hopefully body cooperates, the pain isn't pre-storm bad but it's still pretty bad. It's been keeping me from doing quite a lot since we got back. Very frustrating.
July is starting to fill up a bit plans-wise but nowhere near June levels of ridiculousness.
Will and I got a new bed this weekend - a REALLY nice one. Like "should help our physical issues a LOT" type of nice. Adjustable so it can take pressure off the back and hips while we sleep, and I can have my feet elevated for circulation problems. Given some time and it should improve our lives significantly. I'm really glad we were able to get it, and that the mattress place had such an awesome deal on it (5 years 0% interest, no penalties for "overpaying"? Score)
I don't know, all in all I'd say life is looking up. I'm holding my breath it feels like, waiting for something to go catastrophically wrong because, well... that's been life for the last 10 years or so, a comedy of errors, a constant "oh god what now" series of events. Now that things seem to be going so right I'm trying REALLY hard to enjoy it without worrying that it's all about to go horribly horribly wrong. :P
