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[shinga]

I feel a bit bad. I've been working my ass off while I'm here and I'm burned the hell out. I only have... well, tonight... and I want to be relaxed and focused on important things. Work is going okay, next week's comic is already done, mortgage is paid, I can take a break without the guilt eating me alive. I can spend this time focusing on love and quality time and all that, rather than being tense and even staying awake too late at night going over scheduling and to-do lists in my head on repeat for hours, judging myself for not working harder even though every inch of my body aches with exhaustion.

Nothing will ever feel good enough even if I work myself to the death. I don't want to be dying and thinking "I was in his arms that night and all I can remember is how stressed I was"

Fuck that. I want to remember something else. <3