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Gonna try to do this weekly...

I post a lot of stuff on Facebook. Silly stuff, weird stuff, cool stuff... basically videos and pictures and links all the time. So I figured, eh, why not gather them all up once a week on LJ/DW, right? Right. Indeed.

( so, this last week... [vaguely NSFW picture, just women in underwear] )

Okay I think that's it for now. :)

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So many thoughts running through my head. I feel like I'm balancing myself on unstable ground. The second I think I'm all right I stumble again. Half the time I look into the mirror and I have no idea what I'm looking at. My face looks tired, blotchy, red... I figure it's eczema. That plus acne from hormones and I just feel... ugh. I'm frustrated with myself. I don't understand my body. So much weight gained despite making my diet and habits healthier? I've not been perfect but I've improved a lot, but 30+lbs later and I don't know what's wrong. These last couple of weeks I got down 5lbs and up 7.

And anyone who's all "LOL JUST EXERCISE" needs a punch in the gut. That'll be my exercise. It's not that easy. I wish like hell it was. I genuinely miss running.

On the bright side, apparently I carry the weight well enough... no one can tell I'm 170lbs.

Bleh. Not sure where this mood's really coming from. Maybe the weather, I've been slacking on taking my Vitamin D to make up for the lack of sunshine.