(no subject)

Had several happy dreams. Seemed the running theme was people I love leaving me but me meeting them later, and seeing them really happy, and me being happy for them. Lots of smiles all around.

But I woke up wondering why the hell my head thought that was a happy dream. Well okay it WAS happy but it started out with me being alone and everyone else being happy with others. Which... I mean, if that happens, I want happiness for them, but... still felt all weird and sad and abandoned when I woke up.

THANKS, BRAIN. I KNEW THERE WAS A REASON WE WERE FRIENDS.

Bah.

On the bright side, I'm having a ~skinny~ day :P Looked in the mirror and was fairly happy with what I saw. Oh hormones... doesn't seem to matter how much weight progress I make, one ovulation and I look like I've put it all back on. The body is a strange and weird thing.

Need to head to the store today or tomorrow. Or give Will some cash and have him do it. Just need my weekly supply of Lean Cuisine lunches. Tasty stuff, that. :)

Random, but... I haven't drawn in days. I notice with the winter coming my body aches all over even more and it's hard to find joy in drawing because, well, it brings some pain after a while. I miss it. I miss it being so easy, something I did for fun to relieve stress and get out what was in my head. Now I feel like I have little to no release. Everything's so bottled up and I've got no idea how to get it all out in a healthy way. Funny how the littlest thing can throw everything out of balance. I think the lack of art is what's been throwing me off so much lately, mentally and emotionally.

Anyway. Um. Yeah. Gonna try to get some cleaning done today. And stuff.