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Jul. 5th, 2012 07:52 pmI'm not a control freak, but dammit sometimes I hate lacking control. I feel like I have none. My body just makes everything a pain in the ass. I can't drive, I can't work, I can't dance, I can't play, I can't have sex, I can't shop... and now with the thyroid stuff my diet is also severely limited. So one of the few fully-enjoyable and controlled-by-me freedoms I had is taken away as well. Fuck you too, body. Fuck you too.
It's been a crazy emotional few days and I've cried a lot more than I want to admit.
(fun fact: my severe lack of control over my life via body issues is part of why I have a THING about my hair. Never tell me what to do with my hair. Fun suggestions for styling, sure. But never tell me to cut it or donate it or dye it anything other than what I choose. My hair is the ONLY thing about me I have this kind of control over and goddammit I'm going to hold onto that and get irrationally angry if anyone tries to step on that)
It's been a crazy emotional few days and I've cried a lot more than I want to admit.
(fun fact: my severe lack of control over my life via body issues is part of why I have a THING about my hair. Never tell me what to do with my hair. Fun suggestions for styling, sure. But never tell me to cut it or donate it or dye it anything other than what I choose. My hair is the ONLY thing about me I have this kind of control over and goddammit I'm going to hold onto that and get irrationally angry if anyone tries to step on that)