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$60 in my bank account and no idea when I'll get more money.

I fucking hate to do this again.

Someday I'll not be a failure but in the meantime... a glass of cheap boxed wine bought by some one else has given me just enough of a lack of shame so I can post this. And then curl up and hide.

I swear, I have this fantasy in my head of being well off and being able to help everyone that's ever helped me before... :\ Maybe someday.