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Mar. 2nd, 2014 07:25 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
shingaCOME ON, BENADRYL, I BELIEVE IN YOU
So, this weekend. Ooof. Really it's been a weird week. Not bad, I think... a bit of a blur though. Been hormonal and tired. Moods have stayed fairly stable with the rare exception (like when I spent an hour unable to find my corset yesterday and nearly had a breakdown over it because clearly me not having my corset represented my inability to be beautiful and confident and in control of my own body... yes there were steps to that conclusion but they were admittedly steep)
Yesterday we attended a wedding of some sweet friends... in a brewery. It was actually pretty awesome, free beer and a great couple and lots of friends. We chatted, we drank, we snacked, we hugged them, we left. It was nice.
Right after this was a dear friend's birthday party, Mardis Gras masquerade style. I had a black butterfly mask and painted up my eyes all blue to match the dress I had on. I think it all turned out all right even if the goddamn mask wouldn't stay on my face. I had fun while I was there, talked to friends, had a couple of drinks, ate gumbo... it was all going well, so it surprised me when I crashed HARD. Suddenly I couldn't handle the crowd, the noise, the... anything. Will took me to a quiet place to snuggle and get my mind to calm down and he realized it'd be best to drive me home. It was still early-ish in the evening to he rounded up roommate as well (good thing he wanted to go home too, I left my keys at a friends' place earlier this week) and drove us home. Will went back to the party (he had crash space for the night too so we kissed good night then and there) and I hopped into a bath that was almost too hot to stand. Partly to calm down, partly to shut my screaming hips up.
Ah, yeah, the hips thing. That could have been part of the problem last night. We had a hell of a cold front come in... yesterday was, what, almost 80? At least? Today... BAM, freezing. Rain, snow, hail, freezing rain, sometimes it looked like all at once. So yeah last night my hips were reminding me that this was coming and it was... unpleasant. Still in pain today but it's leveling out and far easier to handle.
Hoping PMS is coming to a close. I've been managing emotional crap just fine but even the back-of-my-mind anxiety and chaos is annoying. Should have started yesterday, been cramping enough that it seems like I should. Still nothing. Maybe tomorrow... bleh, scheduling is fun.
Anyway, this ended up longer than I thought it would be. Just giving my mind a bit of focus right now to shut it up a bit. Fingers crossed for Benadryl to kick in soon, my eyes and face are hurting. And if that doesn't work, maybe the hot chocolate will. Shh, it makes sense.
So, this weekend. Ooof. Really it's been a weird week. Not bad, I think... a bit of a blur though. Been hormonal and tired. Moods have stayed fairly stable with the rare exception (like when I spent an hour unable to find my corset yesterday and nearly had a breakdown over it because clearly me not having my corset represented my inability to be beautiful and confident and in control of my own body... yes there were steps to that conclusion but they were admittedly steep)
Yesterday we attended a wedding of some sweet friends... in a brewery. It was actually pretty awesome, free beer and a great couple and lots of friends. We chatted, we drank, we snacked, we hugged them, we left. It was nice.
Right after this was a dear friend's birthday party, Mardis Gras masquerade style. I had a black butterfly mask and painted up my eyes all blue to match the dress I had on. I think it all turned out all right even if the goddamn mask wouldn't stay on my face. I had fun while I was there, talked to friends, had a couple of drinks, ate gumbo... it was all going well, so it surprised me when I crashed HARD. Suddenly I couldn't handle the crowd, the noise, the... anything. Will took me to a quiet place to snuggle and get my mind to calm down and he realized it'd be best to drive me home. It was still early-ish in the evening to he rounded up roommate as well (good thing he wanted to go home too, I left my keys at a friends' place earlier this week) and drove us home. Will went back to the party (he had crash space for the night too so we kissed good night then and there) and I hopped into a bath that was almost too hot to stand. Partly to calm down, partly to shut my screaming hips up.
Ah, yeah, the hips thing. That could have been part of the problem last night. We had a hell of a cold front come in... yesterday was, what, almost 80? At least? Today... BAM, freezing. Rain, snow, hail, freezing rain, sometimes it looked like all at once. So yeah last night my hips were reminding me that this was coming and it was... unpleasant. Still in pain today but it's leveling out and far easier to handle.
Hoping PMS is coming to a close. I've been managing emotional crap just fine but even the back-of-my-mind anxiety and chaos is annoying. Should have started yesterday, been cramping enough that it seems like I should. Still nothing. Maybe tomorrow... bleh, scheduling is fun.
Anyway, this ended up longer than I thought it would be. Just giving my mind a bit of focus right now to shut it up a bit. Fingers crossed for Benadryl to kick in soon, my eyes and face are hurting. And if that doesn't work, maybe the hot chocolate will. Shh, it makes sense.
