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shingaTurns out three straight days of crippling pain can make you all emotionally vulnerable and whatnot. Thankfully current drama things are quiet, there's nothing going on that I'm not able to handle. But I know if something does happen I might not be as "graceful" as I apparently am the rest of the time. Need and want to be strong, not sure if I can be right now.
Tomorrow is a new day, and the literal storms should be completely past. I should be in less pain, it's a whole new week, I have a massage at 9 and I plan on that setting the mood for the rest of the day. I'll retake my strength, dammit. This weekend was bullshit (considering we got, what, MAYBE an hour of light rain this morning while I slept - all that pain for storms that never hit us directly) but this week is mine.
Hear that, week? Watch out, I'm claiming you hard and you're going to like it.
... That took an odd turn, but you get my meaning. Sick of pain. Sick of exhaustion, sick of uncontrolled vulnerability, sick of weakness. Ready to get back to normal pain levels, the shit I can handle. Ready to have my head back on straight.
I can do this.
Tomorrow is a new day, and the literal storms should be completely past. I should be in less pain, it's a whole new week, I have a massage at 9 and I plan on that setting the mood for the rest of the day. I'll retake my strength, dammit. This weekend was bullshit (considering we got, what, MAYBE an hour of light rain this morning while I slept - all that pain for storms that never hit us directly) but this week is mine.
Hear that, week? Watch out, I'm claiming you hard and you're going to like it.
... That took an odd turn, but you get my meaning. Sick of pain. Sick of exhaustion, sick of uncontrolled vulnerability, sick of weakness. Ready to get back to normal pain levels, the shit I can handle. Ready to have my head back on straight.
I can do this.
