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Jul. 29th, 2014 08:33 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
shingaSo, family is in town. Brother and mom and extra. Mom left this morning. I think the family being around along with a handful of other things that wouldn't be that bad alone happening all at once... led to a fun few hours of anxiety keeping me awake. Heart racing, breath short, chest hurting, body shaking and tense... it wasn't fun. Finally slept but kept waking up throughout the night after weird stress dreams. Was in pain. So yeah last night can kiss my ass.
Today wasn't fantastic but it slowly improved. Still have a sibling and a sibling-roommate-friend-person here at the house until the 5th. No huge plans this week... therapy tomorrow but no usual Wednesday night stuff, but we might have some folks over. I have an appointment early Thursday morning to have blood drawn at the VA. Friday we're hoping to see Guardians of the Galaxy. Saturday gaming. Sunday hopefully a bit of nothing.
I have a lot of work to do over the next few days. Gonna have a computer again which is exciting, means I CAN get said work done.
Anyway... anxiety can kiss my ass and I'm hoping tonight is far kinder. Pain is... manageable but still very present (there's a cold front/rain coming). Houseguests are quiet and it shouldn't be too stressful to play host for the week before they head up to New York. The closer we get to August and therefore September the more tense and worried I feel, but... it'll be okay. I'll discuss this all tomorrow in therapy.
I'll be okay.
edit more family staying now, youngest sibling needs somewhere to go. no idea for how long. So... three houseguests. Right. I can do this.
Today wasn't fantastic but it slowly improved. Still have a sibling and a sibling-roommate-friend-person here at the house until the 5th. No huge plans this week... therapy tomorrow but no usual Wednesday night stuff, but we might have some folks over. I have an appointment early Thursday morning to have blood drawn at the VA. Friday we're hoping to see Guardians of the Galaxy. Saturday gaming. Sunday hopefully a bit of nothing.
I have a lot of work to do over the next few days. Gonna have a computer again which is exciting, means I CAN get said work done.
Anyway... anxiety can kiss my ass and I'm hoping tonight is far kinder. Pain is... manageable but still very present (there's a cold front/rain coming). Houseguests are quiet and it shouldn't be too stressful to play host for the week before they head up to New York. The closer we get to August and therefore September the more tense and worried I feel, but... it'll be okay. I'll discuss this all tomorrow in therapy.
I'll be okay.
edit more family staying now, youngest sibling needs somewhere to go. no idea for how long. So... three houseguests. Right. I can do this.