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Oct. 16th, 2014 04:20 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
shingaLast night we picked Diana up and brought her home for the night. The vet was saying she still isn't eating as much as she needed to but at that point she'd been at the vet's for three days and she might have been refusing out of stress.
Once she was home she was purring almost constantly. She seemed happy. She was walking funny but they had a catheter in her until Wednesday morning and she'd had a couple of enemas so it wasn't weird that she was still feeling a bit uncomfortable. But she was still moving slowly and I noticed a change in her breathing (shallow and rapid) - it affected her meowing and purring. I opened up the canned food and she meowed and seemed interested... until I set it down for her. She sniffed and walked away.
I was worried, but figured maybe she needed to relax more. So that night I put both the gooshy food and dry food out for her in her usual spot in the master bathroom. But once I put her in the room she hid under our bed (something she only does when she's upset or ill) and pretty much didn't come out all night.
She only ate a couple of bites worth of the dry food by the time I woke up that morning.
We were gonna take her in to the vet anyway so we loaded her into the carrier (she was VERY displeased with this) and took her in. Explained that she'd not eaten and her behavior was still iffy, and also mentioned the shallow breathing (something she listened to and confirmed it was odd)
Vet's now worried about a possible heart condition. She wants to refer us to an internal medicine specialist in Dallas. The specialist refuses to work with us financially with a payment plan. My CareCredit will help a bit but it was a $2100 limit and I've already put almost $600 on it (and more soon as the new vet bill comes in for the feeding tube and heart tests they said they were doing today)
We went home to give it some thought. Will has been amazing throughout, and says if it's Diana's time to go we'll run out and find a tortie kitten soon as I'm ready, heh. It worries me that his and others' comforting words have changed from "she'll be okay" to "if it's her time to go you gave her a very good life" sort of stuff.
And... yes. If it's her time to go, she had a very happy life. I love her, very much. I'm not ready to let her go yet but if it turns out I need to, I won't prolong any suffering. Part of loving a pet is knowing when it's cruel to hold onto them.
I called the vet to ask if they could get an estimate from the specialist on the costs of her treatment. Soon as I know what we're looking at I'll set up a gofundme to cover what CareCredit can't.
I just want what's best for her. If that means I lose her... then that's what has to happen. It'll break my heart, but... I can't let my own selfishness contribute to her pain.
Once she was home she was purring almost constantly. She seemed happy. She was walking funny but they had a catheter in her until Wednesday morning and she'd had a couple of enemas so it wasn't weird that she was still feeling a bit uncomfortable. But she was still moving slowly and I noticed a change in her breathing (shallow and rapid) - it affected her meowing and purring. I opened up the canned food and she meowed and seemed interested... until I set it down for her. She sniffed and walked away.
I was worried, but figured maybe she needed to relax more. So that night I put both the gooshy food and dry food out for her in her usual spot in the master bathroom. But once I put her in the room she hid under our bed (something she only does when she's upset or ill) and pretty much didn't come out all night.
She only ate a couple of bites worth of the dry food by the time I woke up that morning.
We were gonna take her in to the vet anyway so we loaded her into the carrier (she was VERY displeased with this) and took her in. Explained that she'd not eaten and her behavior was still iffy, and also mentioned the shallow breathing (something she listened to and confirmed it was odd)
Vet's now worried about a possible heart condition. She wants to refer us to an internal medicine specialist in Dallas. The specialist refuses to work with us financially with a payment plan. My CareCredit will help a bit but it was a $2100 limit and I've already put almost $600 on it (and more soon as the new vet bill comes in for the feeding tube and heart tests they said they were doing today)
We went home to give it some thought. Will has been amazing throughout, and says if it's Diana's time to go we'll run out and find a tortie kitten soon as I'm ready, heh. It worries me that his and others' comforting words have changed from "she'll be okay" to "if it's her time to go you gave her a very good life" sort of stuff.
And... yes. If it's her time to go, she had a very happy life. I love her, very much. I'm not ready to let her go yet but if it turns out I need to, I won't prolong any suffering. Part of loving a pet is knowing when it's cruel to hold onto them.
I called the vet to ask if they could get an estimate from the specialist on the costs of her treatment. Soon as I know what we're looking at I'll set up a gofundme to cover what CareCredit can't.
I just want what's best for her. If that means I lose her... then that's what has to happen. It'll break my heart, but... I can't let my own selfishness contribute to her pain.
