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[shinga]

I can't tell if the depression is winning. I feel like I'm... stable right now. But I'm still feeling so apathetic. But then there's "am I truly apathetic or is my body just putting its foot down on physical limitations?"... because most of my apathy is "I haven't cleaned/worked/exercised as much as I should"... all of which has been really difficult lately.

Ugh.

I'd just like to feel like I contribute something.