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[shinga]

I can't tell if the depression is winning. I feel like I'm... stable right now. But I'm still feeling so apathetic. But then there's "am I truly apathetic or is my body just putting its foot down on physical limitations?"... because most of my apathy is "I haven't cleaned/worked/exercised as much as I should"... all of which has been really difficult lately.

Ugh.

I'd just like to feel like I contribute something.

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[bigangry]

Sometimes, even with the depression meds and therapy and support networks and everything... all one can do is just try to function at the bare minimum. This is the reality of depression a lot of the time. And it sucks, and it's aggravating and it's frustrating and it's enough to spark even more depression. The situation I know I'm in and I'm pretty sure you're in as well, it's as good as it's going to get some days. Coming to terms with that is a very, very hard thing. And it sucks. And I don't know that it was the best thing for me to say this to you, but it's the truth and it sucks, but hopefully it's good to know for you that others go through similar things. If not, I sincerely apologize for bringing you down.