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shingaNew goal.
Yes, I want to "lose" weight. After thinking about it I'm actually just more focused on getting in shape. So, I'm gonna focus on that and not so much on "ZOMG THINNER = BETTER"... just want my muscles and such back.
So, goal being, I need to focus on being more confident in who I am. I have no real reason not to be. Sure I have room for improvement but who doesn't? Point is, with everything that's gone on in life I'm letting it get to me a bit too deeply. I'm letting it skew my view of myself and it's been damaging, both to me and my relationships.
So there. Smile more. Be happy with me in every shape and form. Stop spending every second of the day doubting myself. Know that I am a good friend, a good daughter, a good girlfriend, etc. Know that every day has potential to be good, I just have to kick its ass when it acts up. I need to recognize and fight my moods.
I'm strong. I'm smart. I'm great the way I am. Hell, it was hard to write that... because I still struggle not to argue all of those points. "Well yeah I'm all right, but [insert 8000 flaws]"... hell yes I have flaws but recognizing and improving them should be a positive thing, not something I give myself hell about.
So yeah. This is me. No matter what shape I'm in, this is me. No matter how much pain I'm in, this is me. I am me. And me = good. Strong. Happy.
I will be a positive force in this world, and that includes for myself.
Yes, I want to "lose" weight. After thinking about it I'm actually just more focused on getting in shape. So, I'm gonna focus on that and not so much on "ZOMG THINNER = BETTER"... just want my muscles and such back.
So, goal being, I need to focus on being more confident in who I am. I have no real reason not to be. Sure I have room for improvement but who doesn't? Point is, with everything that's gone on in life I'm letting it get to me a bit too deeply. I'm letting it skew my view of myself and it's been damaging, both to me and my relationships.
So there. Smile more. Be happy with me in every shape and form. Stop spending every second of the day doubting myself. Know that I am a good friend, a good daughter, a good girlfriend, etc. Know that every day has potential to be good, I just have to kick its ass when it acts up. I need to recognize and fight my moods.
I'm strong. I'm smart. I'm great the way I am. Hell, it was hard to write that... because I still struggle not to argue all of those points. "Well yeah I'm all right, but [insert 8000 flaws]"... hell yes I have flaws but recognizing and improving them should be a positive thing, not something I give myself hell about.
So yeah. This is me. No matter what shape I'm in, this is me. No matter how much pain I'm in, this is me. I am me. And me = good. Strong. Happy.
I will be a positive force in this world, and that includes for myself.
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Date: 2011-02-17 09:29 pm (UTC)*hugs* Let us know if we can help any.
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Date: 2011-02-17 09:55 pm (UTC)