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Mar. 29th, 2011 07:01 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
shingaI've not been posting much. It's not that stuff's not going on. It is, I guess. The usual, anyway. Life isn't bad... Will and I are doing wonderfully and I'm very happy with him. Spring has started and I love the warm weather but the crazy up-and-down can KILL my hips and allergies, heh. Feeling so much better health-wise... at least enough to finally get out and socialize more.
Been trying to work on myself emotionally. Been a lot I want to work on - I used to be a lot more emotionally and spiritually open and that's not been the case since December. I know exactly what triggered me being so closed off - and in worse case scenarios, flat out crazy (I briefly considered checking myself into a mental hospital for a while)... the situation with my family made something snap in my head and it got ugly. It's improved... slowly but surely I'm getting back up on my feet and able to support myself and even others sometimes emotionally. I was really fragile for a long time there. Still not 100%... and I miss how I was a year ago. A lot more open, more at peace with myself and others and the situations around me, at least on a deeper level. Right now everything feels so fractured and I've closed off more than I like. I feel trapped inside huge thick walls and I've been spending the last month or so finally ready to start looking for a way out. But I'm not there quite yet.
Anyway, bleh.
Relaxing at home tonight, wanted to enjoy a calm and quiet on-my-own night. Got my kittygirl as company and 1000 Ways To Die is on TV. Have a few straight days of socializing coming up so a lot of Tuesday nights are spent quietly at home so I can keep my energy up.
Haven't heard anything from the VA outside of their repeated "o hai we're still working on it, lol" letters. Meh. I know this shit takes time but I grow impatient and financially frustrated. This month's been tight because sick = hard to work. It's frustrating.
So, yeah. Stuff.
My birthday is on the 28th of next month. Plan on having fun with it. I'll be only 26 - young'in :)
Been trying to work on myself emotionally. Been a lot I want to work on - I used to be a lot more emotionally and spiritually open and that's not been the case since December. I know exactly what triggered me being so closed off - and in worse case scenarios, flat out crazy (I briefly considered checking myself into a mental hospital for a while)... the situation with my family made something snap in my head and it got ugly. It's improved... slowly but surely I'm getting back up on my feet and able to support myself and even others sometimes emotionally. I was really fragile for a long time there. Still not 100%... and I miss how I was a year ago. A lot more open, more at peace with myself and others and the situations around me, at least on a deeper level. Right now everything feels so fractured and I've closed off more than I like. I feel trapped inside huge thick walls and I've been spending the last month or so finally ready to start looking for a way out. But I'm not there quite yet.
Anyway, bleh.
Relaxing at home tonight, wanted to enjoy a calm and quiet on-my-own night. Got my kittygirl as company and 1000 Ways To Die is on TV. Have a few straight days of socializing coming up so a lot of Tuesday nights are spent quietly at home so I can keep my energy up.
Haven't heard anything from the VA outside of their repeated "o hai we're still working on it, lol" letters. Meh. I know this shit takes time but I grow impatient and financially frustrated. This month's been tight because sick = hard to work. It's frustrating.
So, yeah. Stuff.
My birthday is on the 28th of next month. Plan on having fun with it. I'll be only 26 - young'in :)
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Date: 2011-03-30 05:22 pm (UTC)Gonna be 31 *>:[*